Recovery without Suppots

  

Recovery without Support

This is something dear to my heart. I would not be the person or possibly alive if it was not for the choice I made to change my life. I was raised in a family where I had all the support in the world you can even say I was over supported hence spoiled, but that is something I would never want any other way. My family was the best at support and instilled it in me. I like many fell from the straight and narrow path or should I say the right path. I became a full blown heroin addict why surge coat it. Yes it started with prescription medication for injuries. I love the feeling and found I was hurt but only for the pills, medication seeking and buying off the streets. Then I found this drug heroin was only five dollars compared to the sixty for an Oxy the highest pill form of basically heroin I found. All that said my family wanted nothing to do with me. I had stolen from them all for this drug I needed so I thought.

   Recovery is a support based system, without support there is no recovery. Being in recovery for years in January it will be five years on my birthday I have been clean and sober. My recovery was something I didn’t just achieve easily it took a lot of support from others such as; family friends and recovery based outlets.im on a Methadone Clinic that has you on a set amount of medication to keep you from wanting the drug or the crazing’s,. Then there are groups you attend a week to report in with peers that are or have gone through what you are or will go through  this is mayor this is where you say what’s bothering you and if you need to increase you methadone dose to cope with withdrawals or triggers that make you want to still use. This is where you see the support in a full circle. Now I’m not going to sit here and say everyone on the clinic is not doing what would adequate an drug free by any means, this is where there are a lot of bad things about the clinics and stigmas. They say recovery only works if you work it.

Now many say well why not stop the use and just move on you don’t need support. Well ok I would say give it a try. Many have and many are no longer here because of that reason they stay clean for ten years stay away and don’t use and one day run into an old person they used to get high with. The person relapses and possibly overdoses and dies from the no tolerance to the drug after so long of being clean or drug free, well say the person does not die and feels so ashamed all that time and hard work and uses that as the justification why to keep getting high. See justifying anything to get high is a problem  

That same person in narcotics anonymous with the time they had friends and people from the fellowship would have helped them. By always being one call away or by surrounding you with a productive support system. Spending time with fellow recovered person that cast no judgment on his or her past drug use... Well I can never say no judgment I can’t speak for all, but they are strong groups that have a high success rate of long term sobriety. Though I do not attend meeting all the time I do here and there to get my anniversary key chain or coin. Black is the one I have for multiple years. It’s been a while since my last meeting and I will be by one soon but the life I lead I can take it or not.

I have the support of a loving partner who loves me through and through. All that I stated prior about no family trust has changed? Well I’m the most called on for anything from a ride to watch my aunts and unlaces house. I can say the support I had was something I had to get it was there all along I needed to use it. Family would rather see you do well they see you do bad and same with your lover. Now I have times where I get upset and mad gosh I lost my mother and found her dead on Easter of this year. I did what I knew I needed to surround myself with positive people and work my plan for sobriety. Now I have all the things anyone would want cars, jewelry, money a loving family and a lover oh and the bills you will never escape them. Many think well I’m always going to walk around with that notion that I’m an addict but if you had diabetes would you always think that and feel bad well then there’s a total other problem. There’s  therapists out there that help dual diagnosis mental/addiction problems ill repeat myself over and over  sobriety works if you work it and there no way to stay clean without support from someone even gods listening.